Saturday, August 1, 2009

What if I had never met you guys...

So I have been on a Sex and the City kick lately, and I was watching the episode where Carrie moves to Paris with the Russian, and when she and the girls are at the "last supper" Carrie makes the statement:

"What if I had never met you guys?"

And it got me thinking about my friends...what if I had never met them?

Kinsey...I would never had been able to: realize my flaws and how important people like her are, see scary movies, spend endless hours laughing at things that only make sense to us, have a book of quotes, drive around Davis County stalking people, have end of summer nights, see every movie known to man kind, eat at CPK to the point where we were regulars, get ready for dances, get ready for pageants, watch my sister get married, or go through the drive thru's and ask for water and band-aids! We have had our ups and downs over 6 years...but I owe so much to her, she taught me some of life's hardest lessons, and even though I wish I cold take some of the situations back...I am a better person because of her!

Rachel...with out my Rachie I would be lost! She is my "I don't give a shit" friend! She and I are a match made in heaven! We too have had our ups and downs, but my post high school life would have been super boring if it weren't for her! She brought out a side of me that I didn't know I had! I can be my total self around her, and she never makes me feel stupid! Drive-ins, ruffles and ranch, the explorer, the tiberon, St. George crack whore & 4-sale, great Halloweens, Wet Seal, movies in sweats, my "Mexican" family & Chaz, my beautiful nephew!

Kaitlyn, Kylie, and Jennica! The girls of 27! I had the most amazing year with them! I know Logan would not have been so great if it weren't for them! Lake Powell, the lake powell boys, green thumb, the nunnery, the fruit loop, Howl, my 21st birthday, the aggie station, 44 oz, Mexico, the weekly line up of shows to gather on the couch and watch 3 or more hours of TV! and so many other things that would be a huge list! Because of them I am more myself than I have been in a long time!

How different my life would be if they hadn't been in my life! A span of 6 years...how different would my life had been? I can't imagine where I would be today if it weren't for them...

And the boys: Jason B., Tanner, and Jason M...how different my life would be if they weren't in it...i owe my life to Jason B, literally! I wonder if he hadn't been in my life, especially when grandma and grandpa had died, would I still be here?? Would I know what love was for someone other than your family? And would I have never started lying to my parents...(more so than I already did? Hey i'm not perfect)...such a bad influence...but a HUGE part of my life!

And Tanner...oh Tanner!...Nemo night...a love for gum, Mr. Davies class, sophomore benches and pizza hut breadsticks...and heartbreak.

Then Jason M...i learned a lot about myself when I was with him...and I learned what "grown up" love was...and what "grown up" heartbreak was...and like I said in a previous post...what if he had stayed in my life...would I have come to new york and figured out who I was...what if I had never agreed to go on that first date with him...I would have missed out on a lot of things and a lot of great memories...

Even though it wasn't all flowers and rainbows...I have some of the best memories that put a smile on my face whenever I think about them!

I was blessed to have these people in my life...and even though we could have pulled off about 12 seasons of our own drama filled reality show that could kick Laguna Beach, The Hills, and even The City's asses ...they each played a huge role in who I am...I'm not perfect, and I still have a long way to go, but without them...like it or not...I wouldn't be me...